The best things in life are normally not ours

This post is dedicated to a certain someone that I know still visit this site ocassionally. I will not know when will you pop in to this site again. But hopefully it is not too late when you see this… For days I cannot sleep or study properly. When you gave up hope on me, I sort of shattered immediately. Only managing to keep it together to pass the coming exams. I have no idea how the future will hold after this, but I am very sure the changes that will happen are going to be big and drastic. My only hope is that it is a change that I hope for or else I will have to recover from this sickness alone again. The impact on me was really bigger than what I expected and I really cannot cope well with it anymore. I really hope I will not be so selfish again, if there ever will be a new encounter or if I will ever want it again…